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Hello everyone. I am 39 years old and have a lovely husband and two georgous children, one boy and one girl. I had my first miscarriage two years after the birth of my daughter. I was devastated. But shortly afterwards I got pregnant again and gave birth to my son. My daughter is now 13 and my son is 10. I am more than happy with one of each. About two months ago my period did not arrive, I'm always on time so I just knew I could possibly be pregnant. My husband and I were not trying for another baby but anyway I did a pregnancy test and it was positive. We were both shocked and wondered how we would manage bringing up another child. As time went on we started to enjoy the idea of having another baby and we both excited. We decided to keep it secret until I had my first scan. I booked an appointment with the doctor who confirmed that I was pregnant. Anyway I rang the midwife because I was concerned that I had started bleeding although it was very light. The midwife arranged for her colleague to call and see me the following day. By then I was bleeding heavier and found myself going to the loo frequently to check for blood. Then I started getting stomach cramps. I remembered the signs and knew that it wasn't good. The midwife called and organised an early scan two days later but in the meantime I had miscarried naturally. It was so hard and I cried myself to sleep. My husband has been a great support although we speak about it very little. I am not sure whether or not we will try again for another baby as I am so scared that I will miscarry again but being pregnant for such a short time before miscarrying has made me yearn for another, the right reasons I'm not sure? I am blessed that I have two lovely children already and I will always be eternally grateful for that. I'll finish by saying how glad I am that I found this site. XX