Rachel I hope you get your BFP this month. And Welcome to the family. You will find great comfort and support here.
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Rachel W.
Canada
Member for about 1 month
Trying to become a mother.
July 16, 2008
Hi, I have been married to my wonderful husband for 3 years. In about February of 2007 we decided that we would like to start a family very soon, but being naive we decided that we would wait to start trying for a couple more months so that the baby would have a "good" birthday. In Canada anywhere between the middle of April until the end of September is considered a "good" birthday. So in June 2007 we started trying for our little miracle. We learned very quickly that this was not going to be as easy as we thought. We have now been trying for our little one for 13 months, which I know is not long compared to some of the other ones with aching arms.
I have irregular cycles which makes things all that much more frustrating. My cycles will range anywhere from 30 - 45 days (I was devastated with the 45 day one), and once I have my monthly it will last for about 7 days (with spotting on either side!!). I live in a small town so the medical care available is limited and the doctors here do not know a lot about fertility. You need a referral most of the time in Alberta to get in with a specialist, sometimes even to see an obgyn and then it is between 1.5 - 6 hour drive to get to them.
I am currently on CD14 and just finished a round of clomid 50mg on days 7-11. My doctor thought that you couldn’t take clomid if you were still bleeding so he started me late... that is what I mean by limited medical care. So I guess I am in another 2 week wait, but I try not to think about it too much. I do think however that the clomid helped me to ovulate earlier, because I think I ovulated yesterday and I usually don't until CD19-20.
Sometimes my heart and my arms ache so bad I don't know what to do. It's like you cry so hard it is an out of body experience, like this person isn't even you.
My sister-in-law just had her little miracle by emerge. c-section last night. So I'm super happy for them (ttc 1.5 years, 1 miscarriage) but I still feel a little sorry for myself. They also had the first girl in 3 generations which made my husband really sad because we were hoping to be the ones to break the record. I guess we are selfish. :)
I have irregular cycles which makes things all that much more frustrating. My cycles will range anywhere from 30 - 45 days (I was devastated with the 45 day one), and once I have my monthly it will last for about 7 days (with spotting on either side!!). I live in a small town so the medical care available is limited and the doctors here do not know a lot about fertility. You need a referral most of the time in Alberta to get in with a specialist, sometimes even to see an obgyn and then it is between 1.5 - 6 hour drive to get to them.
I am currently on CD14 and just finished a round of clomid 50mg on days 7-11. My doctor thought that you couldn’t take clomid if you were still bleeding so he started me late... that is what I mean by limited medical care. So I guess I am in another 2 week wait, but I try not to think about it too much. I do think however that the clomid helped me to ovulate earlier, because I think I ovulated yesterday and I usually don't until CD19-20.
Sometimes my heart and my arms ache so bad I don't know what to do. It's like you cry so hard it is an out of body experience, like this person isn't even you.
My sister-in-law just had her little miracle by emerge. c-section last night. So I'm super happy for them (ttc 1.5 years, 1 miscarriage) but I still feel a little sorry for myself. They also had the first girl in 3 generations which made my husband really sad because we were hoping to be the ones to break the record. I guess we are selfish. :)
Greatful, I like the new name, it is more appropriate for your current situation. I am not doing too bad today... I spent the majority of my day shopping for groceries and such. I drive to a city that is about 1 hour away to shop as they have more stuff there. What about you? How is your little bean treating you?
girl, i feel ya! i thought i was reading my own story there for a minute. we've been trying for 13 months, we live in a tiny town in the middle of nowhere-(although i only have 1.5 hr to go to my re...), and we just found out a few days ago that my brother-in-law and his girlfriend are unexpectantly expecting. you guys wanted to have the first girl-we wanted to have the first grandbaby. :( but that's okay, we're so happy for them, they'll be great!
i'm not on clomid...yet...my first appt with the re is coming up soon.
and i completely understand how sometimes you don't feel like yourself. it's so hard. these past couple of months have been the worst. i'm normally such a happy, positive person-i have been more moody and just blaaah than ever before, and i don't like the feeling at all! just remember that there's a plan somewhere in all this madness! our time will come my dear!!! and you have found the best site! the people on this site are amazing! i'm officially addicted to this site! :)
good luck to you! and tons and tons and tons of
babydust!!!!
i'm not on clomid...yet...my first appt with the re is coming up soon.
and i completely understand how sometimes you don't feel like yourself. it's so hard. these past couple of months have been the worst. i'm normally such a happy, positive person-i have been more moody and just blaaah than ever before, and i don't like the feeling at all! just remember that there's a plan somewhere in all this madness! our time will come my dear!!! and you have found the best site! the people on this site are amazing! i'm officially addicted to this site! :)
good luck to you! and tons and tons and tons of
babydust!!!!
Hi Haley, it is really cool that we have been ttc for the same amount of time... well not cool, but nice that we have eachother! I wanted you to know that not only was this little girl the first girl, she was the first grandbaby as well. I was crushed well I found out it was a girl, I thought for sure that God would save that for us... but I know that was just selfish thinking. One piece of advise for you is don't tell yourselves that you will be pregnant by the time the baby comes. When we found out that my BIL and SIL were pregnant we told ourselves that it was ok because we would be pregnant by the time that their baby came. It set us up for a huge emotional fall because it was like a marker... like you have to be pregnant by this time...
I hope that you will get pregnant soon so that instead of feeling dissapointed you can share in the joy with your brothers girlfriend. Who knows, maybe we will get our BFP's together and get to share in our pregnancies. I think that it will be good for you to see the specialist and at the very least find out that everything is ok. There are lots of women who get pregnant right away on clomid too, so all you may need is a little boost. Also, don't worry to much about the clomid because it is really not that bad, it makes you feel funny, but it is bearable.
Well, I will talk to you soon!
I hope that you will get pregnant soon so that instead of feeling dissapointed you can share in the joy with your brothers girlfriend. Who knows, maybe we will get our BFP's together and get to share in our pregnancies. I think that it will be good for you to see the specialist and at the very least find out that everything is ok. There are lots of women who get pregnant right away on clomid too, so all you may need is a little boost. Also, don't worry to much about the clomid because it is really not that bad, it makes you feel funny, but it is bearable.
Well, I will talk to you soon!
thanks rachel, that's very good advice. i have been thinking, oh i'll get pregnant this month and her and i go thru the whole thing together, but you're right, that's just setting me up for disappointment. i definitely still have hope for this month, and the coming months, but it's a great idea not to set a deadline. we'll get pregnant when the time is right!
where are you at in your cycle?? i'm in my 2ww right now...ugg! we're keeping busy enough that i don't have to think about it too much!
where are you at in your cycle?? i'm in my 2ww right now...ugg! we're keeping busy enough that i don't have to think about it too much!
I think that is the best advice! Definitely don't give yourselves a deadline. We did that and yes, we set ourselves up for failure as well. We also put so many things on hold because we thought we would be having a baby.....well, still no baby 14 months later! Just let it all go and remember that when it is supposed to be your time, it will happen. That's my new thing!
I know the 2ww isn't fun. And I totally know about the deadlines!! I told myself last year I wanted to be pregnant by Christmas and then it was Mother's Day and now it's Christmas again. Becky, like you, I have said "Oh we can't do this or can't do that" and I have already planned my whole life around a baby that doesn't exist. I wish I could be one of those people who can just relax but since I've been on here, I realize I'm not alone and going through this makes us all a little nutty!!!
Hi everyone and thank you so much for your support! I am sadly on my CD 1 again! UGG! Stupid AF...lol.
Melissa, I am going to be doing clomid again and I think he may bump up the dose for me. I only have to endure this month and next month... if I don't get my BFP then the doc said he will refer me to the RE! It is really hard to wait, I am getting tired of all of this, but aren't we all? Maybe we will get pregnant this month and be pregnancy buddies! I have my hands folded, my toes crossed and my knees bent for all of us!!!
Melissa, I am going to be doing clomid again and I think he may bump up the dose for me. I only have to endure this month and next month... if I don't get my BFP then the doc said he will refer me to the RE! It is really hard to wait, I am getting tired of all of this, but aren't we all? Maybe we will get pregnant this month and be pregnancy buddies! I have my hands folded, my toes crossed and my knees bent for all of us!!!
well i WAS ttc f0r ab0ut 3 years i took clomid for 4 months... this april 0f 2008 til july 2008.. it d0es w0rk for some however... it does not work for all. It made me really depressed... month after month when af would come i would just cry an cry.... dh didnt know what to say anymore. I would feel all kind of ways.. like why is it so easy for people to have children when they dont appreciate them. The ones who have 5...6...7 kids and they live badly. Their children grow up the same way..living badly because its all they know. But then there are great loving people in this world like us on this site who would be great parents and love there children to the fullest extent. I would even think about suicide sometimes. After the first time of taking the pills (days 5-9 for the first two months and then days 3-7 for the last two) i would get up and throw up always in the mornings and around the last two weeks until af i would have horrible stmoach aches... so i thought hey.. maybe i could be preggers...big negative. Now i still throw up in the mornings now but its not as bad. I stopped ttc because it was a long an tiring process. I was tired of being let down and now i just think i cant have kids or its just not the time for me. Thats just how it was for me... but i do ENCOURAGE you to keep trying...no matter what keep your faith.
July 21, 2008