Thanks Sar, it really makes me feel better to know that your sister's child and yours are really good friends. I am feeling much more positive about things, trying to remember that everything happens for a reason, and that hopefully it wil be our turn for a BFP soon. Your baby is soooo gorgeous! Congratulations, and thanks again for your reply.
Boo1
Member for 4 months
Boo's Journey... feel free to come along for the ride!
September 21, 2008
Well, about me. I am 29 years old and I live in London, UK. I have been married for almost one year to a wonderful man.
Came off BCP in November 07, straight after our wedding, but didn't start actively TTC until March 08.
I have never had a regular cycle in my life, and was on BCP for about 13 years, which of course just masked the situation. So I decided to see a gynae who gave me lots of blood tests, and an ultrasound, confirming that I have pcos, but that I do ovulate on my own. The problem is that on my own my cycles last anywhere from 5-10 weeks, making it really difficult to pinpoint my ovulation. In May 08 I took my first round of Clomid (100mg) but didn't ovulate until CD26, which my Dr was not happy with, so she put me up to 150mg straight away (although we waited a month before taking the clomid as we were moving house). So last month (Aug 14th cycle) I took 150mg, but had a very confusing cycles with my OPK's turing positive several days before my temps rose. I think I ovulated on CD19, which was a huge improvement.
I thought we were covered anyhow, and thought we had done everything right, but spotting started on 12dpo and AF arrived the next day.
Went back to see the gynae 2 weeks ago who gave me a prescription for metformin 1500mg, which I am now taking, along with the clomid CD2-6. Currently on CD8. This month going to take expectorant again, as found it helped with cm last cycle.
Last week was the toughest hurdle of the ttc journey so far. My younger brother got married under three months ago, and last Thursday announced that they are pregnant, first try. We have been trying for six months and have not told my brother or SIL that we are trying. DH and I really are thrilled for them, but I can't explain how hard it was to hear that they are already pregnant. It sounds so selfish, but I am the oldest and I really wanted to have the first grandchild. I feel like a horrible person for feeling this. I know that there is plenty of love to go around for all of the future grandchildren in our family... but I am finding it really hard to deal with.
So I have put on a brave face for my brother and SIL and they have no idea what we're going through. I would be devastated if they thought for a second that we aren't happy for them... we really are... it's so hard to explain but I hope someone on here understands and doesn't think I am a terrible person.
It is so hard to want something so desperately and it be just outside your grasp.
Still, I have had a few days for the news to sink in, and I am excited for a niece or nephew. Also, if I can fall pregnant soon, my baby and my brothers will be really close in age, and SIL and I can be pregnancy buddies, so hopefully it will all work out for the best.
If we don't fall pregnant this month I am going to book myself in for a hsg, which really scared me. But I need to know if there is anything else wrong, other than the pcos. DH did his SA this week, too, so results should be back on a week or so.
I have been following the journeys of the amazing women on this site, and have picked up sooo much info here, this site is amazing. Thanks for reading, and babydust to all!!
Came off BCP in November 07, straight after our wedding, but didn't start actively TTC until March 08.
I have never had a regular cycle in my life, and was on BCP for about 13 years, which of course just masked the situation. So I decided to see a gynae who gave me lots of blood tests, and an ultrasound, confirming that I have pcos, but that I do ovulate on my own. The problem is that on my own my cycles last anywhere from 5-10 weeks, making it really difficult to pinpoint my ovulation. In May 08 I took my first round of Clomid (100mg) but didn't ovulate until CD26, which my Dr was not happy with, so she put me up to 150mg straight away (although we waited a month before taking the clomid as we were moving house). So last month (Aug 14th cycle) I took 150mg, but had a very confusing cycles with my OPK's turing positive several days before my temps rose. I think I ovulated on CD19, which was a huge improvement.
I thought we were covered anyhow, and thought we had done everything right, but spotting started on 12dpo and AF arrived the next day.
Went back to see the gynae 2 weeks ago who gave me a prescription for metformin 1500mg, which I am now taking, along with the clomid CD2-6. Currently on CD8. This month going to take expectorant again, as found it helped with cm last cycle.
Last week was the toughest hurdle of the ttc journey so far. My younger brother got married under three months ago, and last Thursday announced that they are pregnant, first try. We have been trying for six months and have not told my brother or SIL that we are trying. DH and I really are thrilled for them, but I can't explain how hard it was to hear that they are already pregnant. It sounds so selfish, but I am the oldest and I really wanted to have the first grandchild. I feel like a horrible person for feeling this. I know that there is plenty of love to go around for all of the future grandchildren in our family... but I am finding it really hard to deal with.
So I have put on a brave face for my brother and SIL and they have no idea what we're going through. I would be devastated if they thought for a second that we aren't happy for them... we really are... it's so hard to explain but I hope someone on here understands and doesn't think I am a terrible person.
It is so hard to want something so desperately and it be just outside your grasp.
Still, I have had a few days for the news to sink in, and I am excited for a niece or nephew. Also, if I can fall pregnant soon, my baby and my brothers will be really close in age, and SIL and I can be pregnancy buddies, so hopefully it will all work out for the best.
If we don't fall pregnant this month I am going to book myself in for a hsg, which really scared me. But I need to know if there is anything else wrong, other than the pcos. DH did his SA this week, too, so results should be back on a week or so.
I have been following the journeys of the amazing women on this site, and have picked up sooo much info here, this site is amazing. Thanks for reading, and babydust to all!!
Hey Sar, thanks for checking in on me. I am doing OK, CD18 and still no OPK+, but I am hopeful it will come in the next few days and we are BDing every other day at the moment. Really hoping for a + soon. This is round 3 of clomid, 150mg. Last cycle I O'd on CD19 so looks like this month will be a little later.
Also, last Saturday I went for my first acupuncture appt and I am going to be having a session every saturday for a couple of months, so that helps me feel more positive and that I am doing everything I can to TTC.
How are things with you and your little gorgeous baba?
Feeling much better about the SIL situation, it's taken a couple of weeks but now I am really excited. It's funny because I have learned so much from this site that I am able to give her loads of info on he pregnancy!
Also, last Saturday I went for my first acupuncture appt and I am going to be having a session every saturday for a couple of months, so that helps me feel more positive and that I am doing everything I can to TTC.
How are things with you and your little gorgeous baba?
Feeling much better about the SIL situation, it's taken a couple of weeks but now I am really excited. It's funny because I have learned so much from this site that I am able to give her loads of info on he pregnancy!
September 21, 2008
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