FertilityTies posts tagged with sad

Needing Some Support

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 14:34:43 -0500

So my AF has yet to show her face... I have even lost count of what cycle day I'm on. I suppose she might not show up this month because of my hsg and how much I bled then.

Just feeling so down. Had a blast night with DH, we went salsa dancing and just go to carouse around the city... it was awesome. But this morning I just had this overwhelming feeling of sadness. I'm just so tired of waiting. I know that sounds very childish and very immature... but has anyone felt this way?

I know by later today or even by tomorrow I feel better... but I just need some support right now. I'm so grateful for this website, all of you are a God send.

Bellaflorita7

Feeling bad for myself, again.... ugggghhhh

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 09:29:10 -0500

i dont knwo what the deal is right now but i am so emotional and sad over the last week or so.

I just got an email from my SIL who is gonna be delivering in the next couple days, or hopefully for her anyway. And it made me tear up. Im happy for them and obvioulsy i didnt think she was gonna be preggo forever but the thought of her giving birth makes me very sad (for me).

She got her BFP the same day that i got my BFN from my 1st IVF cycle. I think i just in the last month or so got used to her being preggo. I had another m/c during her pregnancy which didnt help either.

I love her and my lil nephew but im so sad..... how do i get out of this funk?

She wants to get preggo again by next summer and i am sooooo scared that he i will sit AGAIN wanting another child and watching her during a pregnancy.....

just not in a good mood.

Do you tink that going thru coffee and soda withdrawl could make me all emotional and stupid like this?

chelsharmony

implantation bleeding

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 21:52:22 -0500

i was just wondering. i have irregular cycles. anywhere from 28 -31 days. i ovulated on cycle day 17. can i have implantation bleeding on cycle day 29?

mandi05

I'm sad

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 01:31:00 -0500

af came today ..

christina holiday

so depressed, 2m/c and now a neg. 10dpo. any advice would be appreciated!

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 15:11:18 -0500

doc tested today neg. only 10dpo thought you could implant up to 12dpo, but he said for me to go ahead and quit meds. confused upset could that have been false neg?

trisha moslet

Very sad today...just venting

Tue, 05 Aug 2008 13:50:50 -0500

We have been TTC for 12 months and are currently on a TTC break. However the pain of TTC and the reminders that we are still not preggo keep coming up and for some reason its bothering me today. I am very emotional today and just 'out of it'

I went to see my friend in the hospital today. Some of you may remember my post on her. She had uterine cancer and had a hysterectomy. During the surgery they found it had spread all over her abdomen and she has been so sick from the infections since that they cannot do chemo or radiation yet until she gets better and she keeps getting worse. She is in and out of conciousness. Her prognosis is not good. Today was the first time I have seen her since she has been sick and she asked me was I pregnant yet. I told her no and she said every time she "sees" God she asks Him to tell his angels to help me have a baby since she no longer can't. I know it is just her pain meds talking but it was all I could do to keep from bawling.

I am just so sad and feel defeated that this will never happen for me. We are trying Clomid later this year after we start trying again but DH has a morphology issue and I just dont feel like it will happen for us.

Sorry to be such a downer but I just had to vent = )

LauraMarie

feeling sad right now

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 15:55:25 -0500

Hi,

I am having a rough day today my friend lost her baby. Also the miscarriage i had in December i would be due next week and my friend losing the baby has brought up all the pain again, i know i should not be thinking of myself right now but i cant help it. i wish the pain would go away and that i can get back to trying to get pregnant but until i get the results of the tests i had done i can even consider it as i cant face another miscarriage.

Andrea Meyler

2 misscarriages and hopeful! please pray 37 running out of time

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 22:03:26 -0500

Hi, everyone hope all is well. Here is my story. On 2-27-07 i misscarried(11wks with D&C)) and then my husband left for Iraq 3-11-07, not a easy time for me. Well 5-7-08 my husband came home safe, yea! and by the end of may i was pregnant, but at 4wks. i had a complete miscarriage(no D&C). please pray for us that the next on sticks. please send sticky glue and baby dust. thanks and right back at you too. oh yea what does RE stand for?

trisha moslet

MY LAST POST ON FERTILITY TIES

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 20:11:06 -0500

Hi everyone I have had my journey stopped on Clomid after 2 1/2 cycles on it my doctor has stopped it due to the really bad side effects i was haveing and I now have hyperstimulation from the clomid and my ov are really enlarged, i also had a bad reaction to it as well.

But I really want to thank everyone for there help,understanding and support through my journey on here thankyou all.

I wish you all the best of luck and lots and lots of ******BABY DUST***** and lots and lots of ***STICKY GLUE*****

I guss i'm back to square one its just not fare,I guss i'm not ment to be a mother.well i have that a bit wrong i am a mother its just that my son was born into heaven and i'll never experience mother hood like most people.I guss i find it hard to belive that god can bless you with a baby but take him back before he had a change to experince life for him self..

I'm so sorry i think i needed that one last vent.. and i'm really sorry if i upset anyone who is reading this its my story and my feelings and i don't mean in anyway to upset anyone on here and i know so many other people have there own sad story.

Well once again thankyou all

tryin4baby

A poem to my baby

Thu, 29 May 2008 11:27:21 -0500

We found out we were pregnant and happily shared our new with family and friends.

Little did we know that your time would be cut short and so suddenly have to end.

My life was so gratefully filled with happiness, and so quickly turned into sorrow.

Everyday is painful and I keep telling myself maybe it will be better tomorrow.

I wonder what you would have looked like. Would you have been a boy or a girl?

All I do know is you just like your brother would have completed our world.

Truth of the matter is I fell in love with you, and I miss you so very much.

Your loss to us is too painful and no ones words of comfort will ever be enough.

I think of what could have been, what should have been, and everything in-between.

I wish I had the answers of why my body did you wrong I am so sorry my sweet baby.

I did not get to meet you, but I need you to know just how much you meant to me.

I wish I could have held, kissed, protect, and comforted you and not just in my dreams.

You had to leave mommy’s tummy, but you will never leave my heart.

As long as I breathe and my heart is still beating we will NEVER be apart.

Chas

What I am learning

Thu, 29 May 2008 11:17:24 -0500

So now that everyone knows our situation, I have found this site and met some great women on here, and dh and I started ttc again. I sadley have learned more about my condition with the half tube crap by this site then my own Dr. My Dr never told me that my right tube would be the only one that world work, and with both ovaries still fine that also lowers my chance of concieving due to the fact that if I o on the left and not the right side I will not become pg.=( I know by the way that I am feeling that it is the left side that is oing and not the right. Every month that is how it feels.=( This is so upsetting to have to work so hard for something and know that it may not happen for a while, if at all,or that I just will get so burned out for trying thatI will just want to give up. I do not wish troubles with having a baby to anyone that truely wants this or deserves this, but is is soo freakin hard when I see others that I know have it happen for them when A. they were not trying, B. Can't take care of it properly, C. have it for attention, and not mention other things. Sorry for seeming so down, but it is so hard to not cry and always smile when I am upset about this. I wish my Dr. would have told me more and figured something out for me so that we could have a better chance.Are there any other things that I can maybe bring up to my Dr for us to try? I need to bring it out and onto the table with him otherwise I don't see things moving for us. I guess all that I can do for now is wait. Thanks for letting me vent.......=(

Chas

Tough times....

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 00:28:54 -0500

Hi Girls

I just got home from TAFE (adult education school/uni) and on my way home I was thinking of how tough its been over the last few wks and months and was starting to get a little teary. But all off a sudden on my ipod came a song that made be feel so hopeful and I wanted to share the words of it with you.

I've been thru countless health issues recently with ttc as well as having 2 miscariages. So like you all I know how hard this journey is. So please read the words of this song. I hope it speaks to all of your hearts the way it spoke to mine

The song is called 'BE STRONG' its by an aussie artist called Delta Goodrem. She wrote this song while she was going thru her own battle, cancer.

This is the song.....Are you swimming up stream in oceans of blue? Do you feel like your sinking? Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through? Well I know what your thinking when you cant't take it. Some time soon I know you'll see.

'Cause when your in your darkest hour and all of the light just fades away. When you're like a single flower who's colours have turned to shades of grey. Well hang on and be strong.

We're taking each step one day at a time. You can't lose your spirit. Let live and let live forget and forgive. It's all how you see it and just remember keep it together. Dont you know your never alone.

'Cause when your in your darkest hour and all of the light just fades away. When your like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of grey. Well hang on and be strong.

No your not defeated and soon you'll be smiling once again. Then you wont have to feel it. Let it go with the wind. Time passes us by and know that your allowed to cry.

'Cause when your in your darkest hour and all of the light just fades away. When your like a single flower whose colour has turned to shades of grey. Well hang on be strong......

Please let me know what you all think. And remember we are in this journey together.

Sending you all LOADS of *******BABY DUST & STICKY SUPER GLUE*******

Hugz Julie

flutterbyejewels

I did not ovulate this month

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 18:04:15 -0600

prog levels read 1.35, the lowest it has been sense clomid. I have noticed a pattern tho, started clomid in Nov-50mg's and ovulated levels 11.2 , Dec-50mg's no ovulation levels 2.54, Jan-100mg's ovulated levels 10.96, Feb-100mg's no ovulation levels 1.35. Seems like I ovulating every other month. Dr is upping March to 150mg's, and I pray it works this time b/c I think I may stop after this month, I am an emotional wreck. And on top of it all I think my Dr sux, she just now tells me I should be taking folic acid while ttc!!! Thanks alot 4 months into it and now u tell me????? Just wanted to share w/ u guys. Thanks for listening and any suggestion/advice is appreciated.

Shawnee

At what point do you just give up and let it go?

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 13:52:13 -0600

Do any of your think about that? Is there a time line in years? I am 33, which I know is not terribly old but I have given birth twice, both in my 20's and the whole pregnancy and newborn was really hard, hard on me and ultimately took a huge toll on my marriage which ended up in divorce. I don’t blame the kids for the divorce cuz we just were too young to handle it all but the stress of it all did get to us. Anyway, im sooooo mentally exhausted with the IUI’s, the meds and now the IVF, meds and doctor appointments and the thought of doing the whole freekin process again makes me cry! I feel like everything in my life revolves around us wanting a baby and at some point something has to give - right now my house, my marriage, my job, my energy, my children, etc are all suffering due to this TTC process.

Im spent and I don’t know that I can do it anymore but I feel like such a quitter and would be failing my DH.

chelsharmony

Do you ever just get really sad?

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 16:46:04 -0600

Ever since the fist month that my husband and I started ttc I thought that it would happen right away. No one ever told me just how hard it really is to get pregnant. Especially when you REALLY want it. Every month I tell myself that this will be the lucky month. Some times I cry for no reason other than I just want a baby and that is really starting to depress me and make me feel really selfish. Has any one ever had this feeling and how did you make it go away?

HeatherK