July 08, 2008
Well, I have a folicle. I ovulated. My husband and I did what we had to do... I think jumping up and down at the rock concert that night didn't help ;) J/K there was a 6 hour differance in times. And he took care of what could have been lost during the jumping. Anyways. Here I am... waiting. Hoping. I get blood drawn on thursday for whatever reason. Then, Friday, I fly out, back to the States for 22 days. A nice vacation from the army for awhile. Tomorrow is my birthday. I'll only be 22. To young to be worried about not getting pregnant. I should be spending a months pay on birth control and condoms... not worrying myself over if I can or can't have a child. I don't know anymore. I just keep thinking that this mess is going to get easier, and that I'll be pregnant, and everything will work out. My father is 60, a Vietnam vet, in poor health, and all he asks, "when are you going to have me some grandbabies?" Then I tell him we're trying, and he gets all serious, and says, he understands, he just hopes its soon, he doesn't have to much longer. To much pressure maybe? I don't know. I'll find out if it worked this time or not in a couple of weeks. I hate asking for it, but, I need some help. Could y'all just pray for me? I've never felt this week.
July 08, 2008
It's a lot of pressure and a lot of worry. My dad doesn't even say anything about grand kids, but I can see it in his eyes... hang in there. Things will work out!
Best of luck on this cycle! Take it easy!