August 11, 2009
It wasn't that easy.... For the first 3 months, I was convinced every week or so that I was finally pregnant. But truth be told, I never had a period after going off of birth control, and when negative pregnancy tests (including bloodwork) told me that I wasn't pregnant....I knew there was a problem.
I went to an OBGYN in December of 2008. He put me on Provera to jump-start my period, and told me to start taking Metformin. This was in hopes that my body would regulate itself and my periods would start being regular again.
No period came. I wasn't ovulating. We tried a cycle of 50mg of clomid with no success. We tried 100mg. No success. At 150mg my Dr. told me that if my follicles were large enough, that he would give me a trigger shot to make me ovulate. But when I went in on Day 12 for my follicle check, my largest one was 12mm long, and my doctor cancelled the trigger, saying there was no way I'd get one mature enough in time to ovulate.
So we were in a pickle. I wasn't feeling very confident with the OBGYN we'd been using...I felt like I had to coach him along and convince him to try new things every step of the way. We decided it was time to go to an RE. This was tough choice for us, since the closest RE was 2 hours away, and our insurance didn't cover appointments there.
We thought long and hard, and after canceling, rescheduling, canceling, and re-re-scheduling, we finally decided that it was too soon to go to an RE. So we cancelled again.
In the meantime, my husband had been taking FertilAid for men, and I'd been taking FertilAid for women.
That week, I was at lunch with an old roommate, discussing my TTC despair....and she mentioned that her OBGYN had helped her fix some problems she'd been having with the Depo shot. So she recommended him to me. I went, and he decided to try putting me on birth control again with a high dose of Metformin to see if my cycles would catch on and regulate on their own.
Before I started the Birth Control pills again, I decided it would be wise to take a cheap dollar store pregnancy test and just make sure I wasn't already pregnant. Knowing my chances were slim to none, you can imagine my shock when I noticed a VERY faint line right before the time limit was up on the HPT. I didn't believe it. In fact, I almost threw it away. But since I'd never had anything even vaguely resembling a line....even an evap line...on a pregnancy test, I decided I better hang onto it.
After showing my DH and then posting a picture online here at FertilityTies, people were telling me that they saw a line too. I remained unconvinced....but the next morning I took another HPT and saw a faint line once again. So I called the doctor, had him order me a beta, and I went and got my blood drawn.
Still unconvinced, I went 5 hours later to pick up my results. When I read the words "POSITIVE" and saw that my number was at 37 (over 5 is considered positive), I didn't believe my eyes. I went into the lab again and asked the receptionist if I was reading the results right! She laughed, and said, "Yep, that's the number."
Wow. Just wow. It was TRULY a miracle. After months of trying, waiting, wishing, and endless praying...and after cycles of side-effect ridden Clomid and gut-wrenching Metformin....I was pregnant. And I'm still not sure how!
FertilityTies, along my journey has kept me sane. There were times I thought I was going to go crazy or just fall into the depths of depression and despair. FertiliyTies is a community of friends and you always feel supported and understood here.
Good luck on your journey to becoming a parent! May God bless you to have a very SHORT stay in this world of infertility and move on quickly to the world of parenthood. :) It's much happier here.






August 11, 2009