TTC One Year Anniversary
September 19, 2008
Wow. Has it been a year already? Excuse me while I stew in self loathing.
I managed to finagle a pregnancy in Feb of '08... but it was fleeing and lost it in March. After copious amounts of testing, it was determined that I dont make enough progesterone. Its incredible what a simple blood test might have shown in those early days, eh? Maybe I'd be 9 months pregnant right now.
Since then, I've tried to get knocked up again... only hubby was on some anti-anxiety medication and couldnt respond. Fun.
I was doing all the work, plus on endometrin. After a few months of trying in vain to get some kind of something going, and looking like a pizza from the progesterone, I gave up.
Now, I find myself 8 days late and with a neg blood test and 4 neg hpts. I am livid. I hate my body. I hate science, and all I want in life is to go back to when having a child wasnt the #1 goal in my life.
Hubby has taken himself off of the medication that so tortured our baby making efforts... meanwhile I am understandably blase about the whole endeavor. My goal right now? Bleed again.
I managed to finagle a pregnancy in Feb of '08... but it was fleeing and lost it in March. After copious amounts of testing, it was determined that I dont make enough progesterone. Its incredible what a simple blood test might have shown in those early days, eh? Maybe I'd be 9 months pregnant right now.
Since then, I've tried to get knocked up again... only hubby was on some anti-anxiety medication and couldnt respond. Fun.
I was doing all the work, plus on endometrin. After a few months of trying in vain to get some kind of something going, and looking like a pizza from the progesterone, I gave up.
Now, I find myself 8 days late and with a neg blood test and 4 neg hpts. I am livid. I hate my body. I hate science, and all I want in life is to go back to when having a child wasnt the #1 goal in my life.
Hubby has taken himself off of the medication that so tortured our baby making efforts... meanwhile I am understandably blase about the whole endeavor. My goal right now? Bleed again.
September 19, 2008
Yep know that sinking feeling when u realise its been 1 year, i went from being fairly casual about ttc to being slightly obessed! Myself and bf have had a few intial fertility tests done and so far nothing to bad has resulted from them (except low sperm morphology, which may or maynot be a problem).
I keep telling myself that its my age (almost 35) and that its just gonna take us a lil bit longer than the average couple-thats what keeps me sane.
Im so so sorry about ur m/c must have been devastating, but maybe you can take a lil comfort from the fact you know u CAN actually fall pregant so its just a matter of time b4 u will again :-)
I myself have NEVER gotten a +hpt, but im hopeful it will come soon.
As for you no show af-do u know when u ovulated? cos if it was later than normal then obviously your af will be late 2.
Hope everything works out for u, keep us updated.
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