Stressed

Laralee I completely understand how hard it is. There are times when I think to myself "what would happen if I couldn't have my own?" usually it makes me cry to think that way. I believe deep down that I will have my turn eventually. I know I was meant to be a mom and that god wouldn't never grant me a child. There are days where I get that "I guess it will never happen" feeling (like this morning when AF showed her ugly face!!!) but I do my best to pick myself up and try again. I know how much I want this and deserve this and this is why I keep on chugging along. You too will get your turn... I think sometimes that god wants to see how bad we want it. This is why I don't give up!! Good Luck Sweetie and Baby dust to you!!! Take care and lots of love!

Thank you!I'm just glad to know someone knows where I'm coming from. To be honest though, my feelings never go away. I always feel this sense of gloom when it comes to getting pregnant. We want it so badly yet I just don't think it will ever happen. not now and not in 10 years.

Sorry to be so negative. I just have a lot going on right now. Thank you for posting! Good luck to you! Babydust!!!!!!!!!! Always stay positive!!!!!!

I understand the negative feelings as well!!! Don't worry Laralee. We all get those days. Try and stay positive. They say when we least expect it that it will happen. Good Luck to you!

Thanks again! Psitive people like you (and just about everyone else here) keep me on track!

***********BABY DUST************

Laralee,

I too know how you feel. I used to have days that I felt like it was never was going to happen!!

You ARE a mother now... I know it's not the same as actually giving birth. I truly believe that sometimes the circumstances that we become a mother may not be what we expected, but the important part is that you are a mother to those precious nephews of yours... Your time will come when you least expect it!!

Laralee, I understand how you feel, and you will get that baby before you know it. For all of us here who have fertility problems from PCOS (me and whom ever else), to unexplained infertility, well it just seems impossible sometimes to picture even getting a BFP none the less holding that minute old baby on delivery day.

I believe if we just have faith, and let that stress be turned into positive thoughts and positive feelings that it will come. Stress does more harm to us then I think half of us truely realize. It can cause Ovulation to be delayed, AF to be delayed and in turn doing that its delaying us further and further every cycle.

I pray you get that BFP soon sweetie you really deserve it, and hold your chin up because soon you will be 8 months Pregnant wishing you could just see your feet, and meet your child. Although im totally excited about being Pregnant and getting that big belly, and cant wait to not see my feet...haha im sure we all feel the same right now, but come that time, I wonder what we will all be saying...haha!

LOADS and LOADS and LOADS of BABYDUST sweetie and POSITIVE HAPPY DUST!!!!

thank you!

Your welcome sweetie :o)

Thank all of you for posting! Your comments are always very helpful! but after going through what I just went through it just proves my point children of my own are not in my future.

Hi Laralee,

Dont think for a second children are not in your future! They sure are sweetie! I think that women who are trying so hard to concieve will definitly appreciate the end result so much more because we worked so hard to get there. Just think of how great you will feel when your holding your new born baby! I cant wait for that day :) Just try to rest up, relax and keep thinking positive. It will happen for you sweetie! We're all so glad your back and feeling much better! Sending you prayers and hugs :)

I felt exactly the same way as you before I got pregnant with my son. My husband and I tried for 15 months to get pregnant and the entire time I had it in my head that it would never happen and I would be crying for a baby all my life. It did happen...and when we least expected it to. I still feel like it won't ever happen now that we're trying for number 2. We've been trying for 11 months now and we've only gotten a miscarriage and heartache. I can't give up tho because I just don't think I could handle it if my son didn't have a sibling all because I thought it was too hard. It will happen...and hopefully soon.

Thank you. I am sorry you feel that way but it is soooooooooooooooo good to know someone feels the same way i do! that i am not alone! baby dust to you!

Laralee how are you feeling?

I am feeling good today! I hope to be in that mood all day today! My hubby and I are going christmas shopping today hopefully, and i am soo excited! i love spending time on everyone trying to find the right christmas gift ya know? anyways Im great thanks for asking Liane! How are you sweetie? Babydust and stickyglue to all!!!!!!

I am doing good. I just came back from a weekend of R & R in Fargo, ND. We live in Canada and decided to go do some xmas shopping. It was nice to get away with the hubby and have some fun. I just finished my Clomid yesterday so I am going to start testing with OPks starting this afternoon. Is there 2 Laralees on here or are you the only one?

I think I am the only one why?

im sorry you feel that way - i am going thru a bit of that myself as of yesterday. Today talked to the doc about yet another failed IUI and talked about going forward with IVF but they couldnt do it until the middle of january so we will be going ahead with another IUI and hoping for the best. I cried on and off on sat the whole day cuz i got another BFN and dont understand why this isnt happening for us. I spose we all have days - or weeks - where we feel like it will never happen for us. Thats why these boards are so important and helpful..... its so nice to know we are not alone and that we can complain, feel sadness, and feel joy together wirh others who can truly understand our feelings!

Glad you are feeling better today!!

thank you honey. i agree about the board im glad i have people to share this with. my friends just dont understand what i am going through-ya know?

yup, i know just what you are saying. Friends try and be supportive but no one can actually know what we feel like unless they are faced with the same thing, amd i hope none of my friends or family ever need to go thru any of this crap! We'll try and keep each others mood up since i also feel like its not gonna happen sometimes!

okay! sounds good to me!