February 13, 2009
I am just so frustrated and completely devistated. After losing my son in 2007, I was SO upset. I cried every day for months and months. This time, of course I am upset, but I am also really angry. I just don't understand why this has to happen.
The loss of my children and the difficult time I have concieving has me questioning my faith and everything else I thought to be true about life. Everyone says I will have a child when it's my "time". When exactly will that be? I know its just something people say to try to make you feel better. It just makes me angry.
I just wish I could have a healthy child. It's all I have ever really wanted, and it doesn't look like it is ever going to happen for me and my husband.