I lost this baby

October 06, 2008

I just got back from the Dr. and he saw a tiny sack (At first he couldn't even find my uturus!!!). He said its no where near where it should be. He is sending me tomorrow for a "mega" ultrasound and they will know more than. He is concerned that there could be on in my tubes as well. He also did another HCG test. After my u/s tomorrow we are going to sit down and talk about my options and they will probably be to have a D&C sometime this week.

I am so so so sad - but at the same time I am glad that this nightmare is coming to an end. It has been 6 weeks of torture.

I think he is going to send us to Mayo clinic in rochester next to talk to an RE about recurrent miscarriages. I hope they will be able to determine why I can't carry a baby:(

October 06, 2008

I'm sorry sweetie.

I hope the Dr.s at Mayo are able to answer your questions. I'm very sorry that this has happened to you again.

Best wishes hun...

(where are you from again?? I don't live too far from Mayo in Rochester :) )

October 06, 2008

So sorry Holly. I hope they can give you answers soon.

Thinking of you. Hugs.

October 06, 2008

I live in Faribault Lisa.

October 06, 2008

I'm by Winona :)

I was just wondering:)

How are you dealing sweetie?

October 06, 2008

Holly, I have been following your journey and I am so sorry about the M/C. I do hope that the RE at the Mayo clinic will be able to give you the answers you need and provide the treatment to give you a successful and healthy 9 months pregnancy. Again, I'm sorry for your loss. I pray for you and DH.

October 06, 2008

I'm so sorry for your loss Holly! Have been checking on the other post for an update & wish it would have been better news! Hope the Dr's at the Mayo clinic are able to help you find some answers.

October 06, 2008

Hmmm, he couldn't even find your uterus at first? Whose to say he's not wrong about the sac? I am interested to see what this "mega" ultrasound will show. Something just dosn't seem right about that. I really hope everything turns out ok = )

((((Hugs!))))

October 06, 2008

Oh Holly! *HUGS* I'm pulling for you...and if you indeed did m/c...I'm so sorry! Let us know what the 'mega' u/s shows..please. Sending you best wishes and prayers!

You are totally in my thoughts.

~Dee

October 06, 2008

BIG HUGS!!!

So sorry your going through this horrible time! :) hope there is ite at the end of this LONG tunnel soon :)

lots of love

October 07, 2008

Holly Im so sorry to read this sad news. I too have recently lost another little angel...Praying you will find a light at the end on this dark tunnel. Please know we are all here for you if you ever need a friend to talk too, a shoulder to cry on or someone to cheer you up....

October 07, 2008

Holly I am so so sorry for your loss.

October 07, 2008

I am so sorry for your loss.

October 07, 2008

Holly--I'm so sorry for your loss! I hope they find answers soon! Lisa and Holly...I'm in MN too...Hutchinson. It's good to know some MN people. The RE I went to was Dr. Hegaard at OBGYN West. I really liked him. We're doing ivf through RMIA in Woodbury. Where are you going? Good luck with everything!

October 07, 2008

Lara, I am originally from Hutchinson!! Graduated form there and everything:) Small world. Where is OBGYN West? IS that in Woodbury??? We have never been to an RE but I am really really hoping to go to one soon. Is it usually a long wait to get into to see an RE??? I would love to get in as soon as over MEA break. I dont know if that is possible, but I would like to try to figure out thinks quickly.

October 07, 2008

Im so sorry holly. I know what you mean, totally, about being sad but also knowing that it is over and you can try to move on with a clearer head. I went thru the same thing a few months back. At my 6 week u/s no HB or fetal pole but a sac then 2 weeks later nothing, no HB or pole or baby anymore. My levels did the same things your did, up and then not as far as they should have been. Every day felt like 100 days and at the last u/s I couldnt bear to look at my DH’s face - he was so devastated.

They gave me the option of the pills that they insert up there and force the m/c. Its honestly over in hours and then a regular period. It causes your uterus to contract and empty out the uterus. It was painful physically but much more emotionally. It took me 2 weeks to be able to do that.

I talked to them about a D&C and cuz my levels never got real high and the sac stopped growing early he said it was better to go with the pills.

Im soooo sorry for all of this, that was my 2nd m/c and it wasnt any easier than the 1st. I hope you and your DH can find some time to be 2gether and console - my DH hid for weeks and we didnt talk much at all, it nearly broke us.

October 07, 2008

No way Holly!!!! When did you graduate? What is your maiden name...if I may ask? I've been teaching middle school choir here for 10 years! Did you have Mrs. Jordahl for art? She's one of my best friends!

OBGYN West has 2 offices. One is right off of 212 in Eden Prairie and the other one is near Ridgedale shopping center. I got in right away, but make sure your own doctor refers you. Our dr. even called and set up the appt. for us. I really liked Dr. Hegaard and would recommend him. They are brand new clinics too. We did a lot of driving back and forth for ultrasounds, etc. but it wasn't too bad....probably about the same as from Faribault.

Good luck!

October 07, 2008

Hi Lara - I graduated in 1998. I had Mrs Jordahl for Middle school consumer science I think - maybe Art - I dont remember:( Maiden name is Ress. My parents still live there. My mom owns an Antique store. Its like 5 blocks E of Pizza hut?? Its only open once a month.

I am talking to my dr. today at 2 to get the results of yesterdays HCG test and the results of my u/s that they are doing at 12:30 today. I am going to see if he can refer me to someone ASAP. I would LOVE to do it over MEA as I too am a middle school teacher and would LOVE to be able to not miss more school. I am already missing almost this whole week:(

Oh, you probably have Ben and Matthew Sandeen - they are my parent's god children. I used to babysit for them:) Sweet boys.

October 07, 2008

Hi Lara! I went to Gundersen Lutheran in LaCrosse, WI. Not too far from WInona, MN .

Good luck with IVF!!!

****BABYDUST*********

October 07, 2008

Well my HCG went up to 821. It should be in the 10,000s. I have a D&C scheduled for Friday:( I am scared. I have never had surgery before. I did another blood test and will get those results tomorrow - if for some reason they shoot up, then we will wait on the D&C. They did the u/s and it showed a sac measuring 4 wks 2 days. I SHOULD be 6 wks 3 days. It isn't a viable pregnancy according to my dr but he doesn't want to take any chances, so he wants to be sure it isn't viable. I am so sad :( But I also want to move on. We have an appt with an RE on Nov 10th. Just one month away. Hopefully they will be able to help us figure out why we keep miscarrying. This is 2 miscarriages in 2.5 months. :(

October 07, 2008

Oh holly so so sorry,

what a nightmare this has been for you. Lets hope this mega ultra sound will find out exactly what the problem is so u can go on to carry that little angel you both so badly want. Keep your strength up because im sure your time will come.

Wishing you good luck and ***BABYDUST***

October 07, 2008

That WAS the "mega" ultrasound:(

October 07, 2008

Sorry dear i mis understood, but i sincerely hope that the reasons for ur miscarriages will be found & put right :)

October 07, 2008

Take care Holly! Thoughts & prayers to you!

October 07, 2008

Holly..........*HUGS*

I had a D&C in 1992, when I miscarried. If you have questions...I'm more than happy to answer what I recall.

I am sorry that the Dr feels this isn't a viable pregnancy and when you go to your RE...I wish you the best to find out WHY you have m/c'd twice in 2.5 months.

I had a m/c in June this year, too.

Thoughts and prayers ARE with you!!!!

~Dee

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