hoping for a happy ending

My Hubby and I were married sep 2007, after the wedding I took up running, for someone who was never sporty her whole life!!! And only decided to TTC this year (2009) once completing a marathon. 2 weeks after my marathon I found out I was preggo!! It was such a surprise since I thought it would take a few months to conceive. It actually worked out perfect, my due date would have been end Dec and would leave me 6 months to recover and train again for the next marathon. Everything was going to plan until I started spotting, my first scan was due in 2 weeks, but I was worried.I planned to call the doc but the next thing I was bleeding. Beeing 9wks, my scan was only showing 6wks, and no heartbeat. 2wks later i miscarried. No doc could explain why. All I could think about was to try again, I had it in my mind it was the only thing that would help how much I hurt.

Two months later my wish came true!! By now my only wish was to have a bump by christmas, it was so exciting!! Went in to see the Doc when I found out, quick scan showed all was in place, far too small to see anything else, but Beta hsg was already bit low. A few days later I started spotting again, panic of course, and My Hubby and I scheduled a flight to SA,(I live in mid Africa) two days later I had a D&C, and all tests proved nothing wrong again!! So many questions , and no answers!! I could not believe it happened again!!! Why? Why? Why? I was devastated.

Being a positive person, I learnt to deal with it, and try and find out more by myself, yes I have had my bad days and still do, but listening to everyones stories here have been such a help!! my story is not half as bad as most!! and most of all i am not the only one!!!

So now its been 2 cycles later, on my third as we speak, I am now 26, Hubby 29, and I really really hope this is my month!!!!

my thoughts go out to everyone, and lots and lots of baby dust, and sticky glue!!