Christine's journey

June 18, 2008

Hi all,

I am 32 years old and have been with my dh for 12 yrs although we only tied the knot last year. We have a beautiful boy who is 6 and the light of my heart. Once we were married we went hell for leather trying to conceive again and add to our brood. We did concieve last July but I lost the baby early at about 6 weeks (chemical preg). I also lost a baby at 13 weeks 7 years ago.

I feel truly blessed that we have a son but I really really want to have more children. I am at a loss now of what to do. I conceived before so "what the hell is wrong with me" is going through my head and everytime I get af I just feel deflated, as I'm sure you all do. Plus my son is just longing for a brother and I hear him praying every night asking God if his little brother is made in "God's pocket" and can he please send him down cause he is lonely - bless him!

I have been using opk for the last three months and seem to be ovulating but af keeps raring her head every month. My cycle has was totally out of whack after my miss and went from a perfect 28 day cycle to 46, 20, 33, . . I am now back to a normal 28 day so I am hoping that our miracle comes soon.

I have never joined any site like this but feel I need support from like minded ladies as all of my best buds are getting pregnant and having beautiful babies. I don't resent them at all but feel sad inside that it's not me and find it difficult to talk to them about my feelings as they can't understand.

I have made an appointment with a ob so I will take it from there and keep you posted. I am on

Baby Dust to all of you and God bless!!!
Scn
ppp

June 18, 2008

Hi CHristine,

I hope u get ur BFP very very soon....n ur goin to gift a brother to ur son..U r in my thought n prayers...This is goin to happen soon. hun!

Good luck with ya n tons n tons of baby dust!

June 18, 2008

Hi Christine and welcome to F/T! I'm so sorry for your losses. So many of us on this site have and currently dealing with miscarriage.

I'm reading your story and wanted to offer some advice for you. Are you working with a fertiltiy specialist? If not I would suggest for you and your dh to start working with a specialist. With the specialist they can run test on you most of the time they are called RE and you can find one in your area looking via this site. Also your dh I would suggest for him to get his sperm and his hormones levels checked because just like a women the male side of infertility is increasing all over the world and it can start happening any time during his lifespan. Also have you spoken to your dr about fertitly meds for ex clomid. It could help give your eggs that lil "kick" to help them out. Also there are other types of fertility meds to help you out. If it lies on the male side there are options for him also. That is why I suggest to get his sperm and hormones.

If you need any help and/or advice pls let us know. Also use the search box on this set I would say everything you can think about fertility has been asked and answered on this site. I wish you the best of luck and ***babydust*** pls keep us posted.

June 18, 2008

Thanks Angelfish and ppp. All of the advice is very welcome. I have made another appt with my gp to get a referal to a specialist. I am from Ireland so hopefully I won't be waiting months to see somebody. Last time I went to my gp he said "ah relax love and sure keep trying for another few months" - not really what I'm looking for!

I hang my head in shame as I don't know very much about tests etc - but I'm here and thats the first step toward my education and hopefully pregnancy. I am kicking myself as I haven't used contraception since my son and didn't get pregnant. There I was thinking I knew my cycle inside out and was a genius and all along something could have been wrong with me :(

Wish you both every luck in the world in your quest for motherhood.

Baby dust to all and I'll keep you posted

June 18, 2008

Christine...north or south Irleand...I'm in the England...Southwest part.

I agree that is what most of them say and I don't put up with much myself when it comes to the dr's esp in the NHS we have gone private and so far it's better you just have to stand your ground with them.

June 18, 2008

I'm in the South of Ireland. I have got private health insurance too but even at that it's hard to find a good ob when you are pregnant never mind trying to find someone to help you on your way:). We have just bought a house too so money is too tight to mention but we'll find it from somewhere!

Four of my closest friends are either expecting or just had their little bundles. On of them had a premature baby at 23 weeks 6 years ago and even she has to wait until she was 5 months before she got a scan. It's just that crazy over here - apparently there is a baby boom lol.

I have an appt for Monday so I'll just demand to get referred.

How is your journey going for you?. . .I don't want to pry but just support you through this rollercoaster ride!

Best of luck and thanks for all of your tips. No doubt i'll be picking your brains in the near future lol.

June 18, 2008

Wow south I believe we have another user from the south of Irleand. Yes I understand what you are dealing with. We are having lil baby boom here where I live. It's nice.

My story is interesting but right now we are on ttc break because of some male factors we are having and my dh is under care and hopefully we will have some answers next week. Talking about a rollarcoaster ride on this but it happens. I'm just blessed to have him and enjoying the ride of life.

Keep me posted on your journey! ***babydust***

June 18, 2008

Christine,

Thanks for your kind words. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you. This site is a wonderful place to get support and just to "talk". I wish you the best and keep us posted on your journey. Stickly Glue and Babydust coming your way :)

June 23, 2008

Hi Anglefish,

sometimes i think it's good to take a ttc break so for now just enjoy the rollercoaster of life and love.

Went my appt with dr today and got a referral to a gyn dr. . . made my appointment today and the earliest it 28 of august so I'll just have to wait and see what happens then.

my dr said something that took me back though and was wondering if you have an opinion on it. He said that since my period started at 10yrs of and my Mom hit the menopause in her late 30's that I would probably hit the big M early also.

June 23, 2008

Hi Christine I so understand about the break thing. We didn't do a break because we wanted to we did ours because the dh has some medical issues that we need to get sorted out. But really this break has helped us. I was just telling another user I have no idea where I am in my cycle and it's nice not to know.

I think the best thing you can do is get a RE and a good one that will listen to you and work with you...that's the best thing to do. Because when that happens you will feel more in charge in a way. Now with the period thing I'm not sure. I started my period when I was like 13 or 14 and that was the norm then and now lil girls like 8 are getting periods and too me that is way to early. I do think it depends on the woman and her history. For example PCOS, endo, pap smears, and stuff like that. There is loads that can be done to help women in this situation now. Much more than 5 to 20 years ago. I'm 37 and wonder when that will happen but my dr told me not to worry that things can be done. I'm looking hopefully in my 50's when it happens. It does come down to your health...but I'm not a dr...all I have is common sense...lol. Yes 30's is very early and it was for some reason why your Mother had the big "M" and I would ask more questions about it with her. Keep me posted!!!!
Cute_puppies
AKB

June 27, 2008

Hi Christine i would like to start off by saying u will find this site to be very theraputic. It's a place where everyone is or haas been in the stage ur in. Thanks for the support after my BFN but i'm staying posotive. All that means is when AF shows her ugly face we can start from scratch LOL. Take care and if u need anything I'm only a message away xoxo

June 27, 2008

Thanks so much . . . you and all the girls on here are all amazing strong women who's journey stories have touch my heart. I am so happy that I found this site. It really has helped me get through the bad days and I have learned so much from everyone.

I'll be busy dbing at the wkend and then have the 2ww . . hoping this is our month but if it's not then there is always next month and the month after. . .one of these days we will get our BFP and healthy pregnancies we just have to stay strong and wait our turn I guess

CC

xox
Cute_puppies
AKB

July 23, 2008

hey chris I haven't heard form u in a while. How r things going, drop me a line when u get a chance

July 29, 2008

Ah Hi AKB, Thanks for thinking of me. I hope you are keeping good.

I haven't been online in a while. we were dealt the devastating blow last week that my 10yr old niece might have leukemia. They confirmed this yesterday are starting treatment today for her. I am concentrating on keeping everything together at home for them while they are up in the hospital so I'll only be online here and there. ttc has been dropped to the bottom of the to do list for the moment.

Wishing you all the luck in the world ttc and you can have all of my baby dust!!

Take care

C

August 07, 2008

Hope you get your BFP and the dream of another little one happens soon. Please take care and i hope your niece gets well soon. Hugs and Baby Dust!

August 08, 2008

Thanks Fran,

I really hope so too!! My niece got good results from her chemo and they are very hopeful she will get over this. It's still a long hard road - 10 months intense chemo and anther 18 month monitoring period. Her hair is starting to fall out which is devastating for a 10 yr old but it's a small price to pay if she gets better.

Your little guy is a cute as a button - you are blessed and you must be so happy. Enjoy every second of him as they grow up soooo quickly. (blink and they are 6 - that's what it feels like to me)

Thanks again for your kind words



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about 5 hours ago

How is your niece? My little cousin had this when she was 4. Now she is a thriving 8 year old with a full head of hair with a clean bill of health! I hope your niece's story ends as well! :) Hug to you!
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