CD70 turned into CD1-FINALLY AF HAS ARRIVED!!!!!

August 12, 2008

Finally had some spotting yesterday evening & full flow today! Should have know it as everything made me cry yesterday, lol! Still feel like crying today-everything seems wrong & mean & just not right! I think I am getting really depressed about this whole TTC process...Also really have no faith in my RE's ability/willingness to help me get preggo at all.

Called their office 1st thing this AM to get an apt for an US to check to see if the cycst is still there (which is what they told me to do) & the nurse was like-well, you don't really have to come in unless you just want to cause we are not going to start your treatments yet anyway. Now, I already knew that I was not going to start back on the meds cause they wanted me to try & drop some weight-1st they said 10 lbs. Then next apt they said 20 would out me closer to my ideal weight & be better. Now this morning it is 25 lbs with no reason & I was so furious I did not even ? the new goal. She went ahead & made the apt for the US but NOW they say they may not put me on the BC pill even if the cyst is still there. Does that even sound reasonable to anyone? If it is still there then it's been there since MAY or even April, why would they not put me on the pill to get rid of it?!?!!? She also wants me to go ahead & do the HSG next week but I don't know-I am not really feeling confident in them so I will have to think about it. I'm just so confused & depressed about all of this!!!

August 12, 2008

Wendy I sorry that you are not getting anywhere.

I think you need to find a new RE like someone who cares.

Sounds like they are stinging you along.

Good luck and keep us posted.

August 12, 2008

Well, they called me bck & want me to come in next week for the HSG but I don't think I am gonna go. Will go ahead for the US this Thursday & it the cyst is still there I am gonna demand to be put on the pill & then make an apt to go back to my old Dr. His office is much further away & kinda inconvenient but at least I felt like he gave a crap about my issues! I have spent most of the morning in tears & I hate this! Feels like I am going backwards instead of forwards!

Also, thanks Carrie, for responding! Sorry to be such a cry baby this morining ladies but seriously I don't know how much more of this I can take! It has been almost 2 years & all we have to show for it is a closet full of baby stuff & a 12wks MC!

August 12, 2008

i dont understand why they wont put you on the pill wendy? What do they care, they hand that crap out like candy to the young girls....... lol!

Talk to the other doc (the one you like) about the HSG, does yoru ins. cover it? its something that is part of the RE work up when you go so its not a bad thing to have but if you had a m/c at 12 weeks you could assume they are clear. Do they know what the m/c was from? Did you have to deliver it or have a D&C? sounds so terrible, im so sorry for all of this :(

August 12, 2008

Hey Chels, I had a D&C after the MC & they did some tests on the tissue & did not find any chrom. issues. Just said it was one of those things that cannot be explained. I had bleed throughout the whole preg (small amnts but always fresh blood) plus had x-rays & meds & other tests that I should not have had when I did not know I was PG. The D&C was really hard on me physically. I bleed ALOT-at one point it was just gushing out of me like water (sorry, tmi) & they had to put me on clotting meds & if they did not work then would have to talk about "other options" which I assume would have meant a hysterectomy(sp). They did say that the surgery went really well & that I should expect alot of bleeding due to how far along I was but I wonder sometimes if that is why I am having such a hard time now. Who knows! This whole day just sucks!

August 12, 2008

Well, I'm back! Still felling sooo depressed & unhappy :( Just talked to DH & he does not know what to tell me & it just makes him worry more when I am sad & that just makes me feel even more sad & upset! Guess I am just feeling sorry for myself but I don't know what to do about it! Hope I snap out of this soon-I hate being like this!!

August 12, 2008

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all sounds horrible, hopefully things will get better and you will feel better very soon!!

August 13, 2008

OK, I am feeling some better today! DH & I talked last night he feels that I should not go back to this Dr's office if I am not comfortable. In a way I do feel like I am being a ninny about this but it is just so frustrating that I get a different response from this office everytime I call there. I am never told the same thing twice about anything-most of the time they do not even have my chart or know who I am when they call me back & that does not make me feel warm & fuzzy considering they are, in a way, in charge of us being able to have a baby.

I am going to call & cancel the apt that they made for me tomorrow & cancel the HSG for next week. I will be at a different hospital with my old Dr & would feel better having the HSG there under his care.

I have to say I feel much less stressed today after making this decision, so that can only be a good thing! Right, lol?
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