about me

My name is Missy , I'm 34 yrs old and my husband and I started ttc our first child 4 yrs ago..2 yrs ago we went to the doctors and we had all the testing done and basically found out nothing was wrong with either one of us..which is/was good in a way but then it makes you wonder if nothing is wrong then what's the problem...very frustrating...in the past 4 yrs ALL of my friends were pregnant or just had kids and it tore me up inside every time I heard of someone becoming pregnant and to the point where

I couldn't even handle being around them while they were pregnant..sounds selfish but I just couldn't handle it..I was very depressed (which didn't help the baby making process) I just didn't understand why they all got to have their families and I couldn't...so after I had all my doctor visits and blood work and everything he put me on Clomid...it took 5 months to finally conceive..I had one more round to go then I was about to panic because I didn't know what would happen next..but on Christmas day '08 I took a hpt cause I was 6 days late...it was positive but very faint...but I took 6 more tests over the next week and it got darker...we were shocked at first because we were so used to negative results..So that's my story..I'm 12 wks 2 days and I'm due Sept. 2ish . I'm excited and scared at the same time.