35 months ttc, new obsticles.

Well its September. DH and I have been TTC for 35 months now. Next month marks our 3rd year anniversary of deciding to "have a baby". 3 Little words that are so easy to say, and so difficult to do.

I recently started Clomid. CD3-7 @ 50 mg. I went on CD12 for a follicle screening... I got less than thrilling news- It looks as though my follicles were too small on CD12 and according to the Dr. I most likely will not Ovulate this month. Bummer, if you choose to believe it. I know losts of women who O very late in their cycles, so Im hoping thats what I am, a late Oer =) I have high hopes that I will get that + OPK this month!

Then he hit me with even harsher news. It looked on the u/s as though I "may" have a subseptate uterus. This is a condition where the uterus is shaped like a "heart" instead of a circle or oval. It happened when I was a fetus and my uterus was just formning. I have no idea how common it is, or if any other women have conceived with such a condition. They want to do another u/s next cycle and see how bad it is. If the septum (part in the middle of the 'dip') is too big, then they will have to go in and do a procedure to fix it. Overall its not a huge deal, some women have kids and never even know they have it... but most often it can cause m/c in the first trimester or other pregnancy problems depending on how severe it is.

I need lots of encouragement and prayers. I feel lost at times. I know to keep hope, there is a chance my uterus is OK and they wont have to do the procedure. There is also a chance that I will still Ovulate.

I am very worried about all of this, it consumes my thoughts and I can't help but get scared/worried. I am holding onto hope and believing that God has our miracle waiting and soon it will be here, when the time is right. I have surrendered myself to him and told him I'm not giving up- just letting him make the calls... its all in his hands anyway. Im ready to be a mother and can't wait until the day I find out I am pregnant =)