New comments on 'Flutters rollercoster ttc journey'

New comment from BabyDust***aka Stace

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 17:44:03 -0600

Yes with all this +++ vibes around there is NO WAY HE WILL GET IT!! LOL :)))))))))))))))))))))))

New comment from flutterbyejewels

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 17:22:25 -0600

Hahaha yep I thought it was so funny, but at least my msg tone isa one of "our songs" so its nice to be able to bd to it even if the whole time I have this crazy thought going thru my head that who ever is txting me can actually hear us doing the deed lmao.....

Thanx stace Im feeling pretty positive about it atm coz his showing no signs of coming down with it so so far so good but my mind will be at ease once his results come back

flutterbyejewels

New comment from BabyDust***aka Stace

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 17:17:15 -0600

HA HA I was going to text ya Yday an wish ya luck but I got side traked at work LOL :))))) well at lest people Love ya ha ha ha ha!!!!!

Well I hope the Chicken pox come back clear I am sure he will be fine! :)

BabyDust***aka Stace

New comment from Treans

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 17:16:03 -0600

ha ha ha That's so funny!!! Yep switch that mobile off for sure!!!

Treans

New comment from flutterbyejewels

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 17:13:19 -0600

No stace the chicken pox hasnt come back clear yet we are still waiting on those results....but hopefully your right and it does come back clear......

Oh and funny story dh has decided that anytime we are going to bd from now on my mobile is being switched off coz of ft lol. Some of you have my number and almost all of you have msged while we are bd'ing lmao Last night it was Beckys turn to text us in the middle. Dh is like gosh those girls really do like to cheer you on with getting preggers dont they made me laugh so much.....

flutterbyejewels

New comment from BabyDust***aka Stace

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 16:59:31 -0600

Glad the chicken pox came back clear Flutter thats great news! Its all moving farward for you! :))) YAY! Only +++++ thoughts!

BabyDust***aka Stace

New comment from flutterbyejewels

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 15:12:58 -0600

Jaime ~ DH and I would go to the end of the earth to child of our own. Its been a long hard struggle but it slowly feels like we are getting to the end of this horrible nightmare of ttc. And then it'lll all start again with stressing over feedings, sleep deprivaton, sniffs and coughs et c etc but will so be worth it.

Following the dr's orders right down to the last detail is always the best way to go. DNA frag issues can swing so if his dr's told him anything special then encourage him to keep it up so that it wont swing out of the normal range. Hopefully you'll be posting a bfp in the net few months fx

flutterbyejewels

New comment from JaimeTTC#1

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 10:13:48 -0600

Flutter...it is just amazing how much you and your hubby have had to deal with. When you finally have a little one there will be no doubt how much that child is loved as you have done so much to bring them into the world.

Thanks for sharing the info with me on your DH. My DH's DNA Fragmentation was still in the normal range, but high nonetheless. We are going to make sure that my hubby cuts out alcohol and does everything the doctor tells him so that we will have the best sample possible when it comes time for IVF. I will start prepping for IVF this coming cycle. I don't have to do BCP. The first drug I will be on is Estrace...probably at the end of next month.

Best wishes and keep us posted.

JaimeTTC#1

New comment from flutterbyejewels

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 01:19:54 -0600

For this IVF+ICSI we WILL have the asperation. But if the cream wrks and he can do the old fashioned sample and theres no dna frag issues then we WONT need the asperation for future ivf tries. We will however need to still do IVF+ICSI coz of low count and motility issues.

Yeah because of all the issues dh has had we have decided that if we have a son then we will get him circumsized as a bub. Coz basicly coz dh's has been left so long without being treated it has demaged some of the nerves etc plus MAY of contributed to his fertility issue's. I really hope your little nephew doesnt have to much pain with the circumision I hear it can get really painful the recovery the older the boy is etc tho not sure if thats current

flutterbyejewels

New comment from Treans

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 01:09:31 -0600

Ok so let me see if i have this straight lol if this stuff works he can give a old fashioned sample and should the sample be of quality they will then go ahead and do your retrieval then actual ivf proceedure? But if the sample is damaged or not a good sample you will have to do the asperation? I think that is it in a nutshell?

My little nephew who is 6 has the same problem and actaully has to go and be circumsized in the next month or so, as it can cause all sorts of nerve damage later on if he is to keep it.

Treans

New comment from flutterbyejewels

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 01:00:18 -0600

Treans we are doing IVF right now provided my bloods check out. Which Im having done 2morro morning and will get the results on monday at our nurse appt. But basicly we are doing ivf. The cream wont have an affect on us doing ivf now as we are already "booked" in for the asperation as we couldnt get the last trial was/ sa done because dh was having WAY to must pain coz basicly his (warning tmi) foreskin is tightening coz a frequent infection he gets at times at the site of his op as a kid and this leads to the skin tighting (of shrinking) and the skin will move back like halfway but get stuck like that for like a hr or more regardless of wat is done to try bring it down. So basicly main issue is to try find a way to stop the old op site getting infected (which they said its like a golden stuff thing, he'll always carry it in his system) which will then stop the skin from tighting. And also the pain side of things for him when the skin comes back while its tight........the only way any of the treatment will ave an affect is if it does wrk coz it'll mean we will be able to get a new sa/trial wash done and if his results have improved from the vits and diet the re put him on months ago then it will mean we wont need the sperm asperation of any future ivf tries. If that makes any sense what so ever

flutterbyejewels

New comment from Treans

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 00:45:54 -0600

Well that's great news...you still don't know exactly when you are starting ivf do you? Does this mean that you may have to postpone ivf for 3 months to get this cream to work or does he think it should do the trick straight away so you can start ivf before xmas?

Treans

New comment from flutterbyejewels

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 00:38:38 -0600

Well we're back from the urologist and he has to use some special steriod cream twice a day and if that doesnt wrk then he will need to be circumsized. The cream might wrk within the next couple of weeks but said to give it up to 3months. His also been put on a strong course of antibiotics to try prevent infection's. The dr said that if the cream wrks then theres a big chance that he will be able to give future samples for ivf the good old fashioned way rather then us having to pay out so much money to get the asperation done. He also seemed really positive about our chances at success for the ivf so it was all really encouraging. We mentioned about the chickn pox going around our family and how dh hasnt had them and he done a blood test to check for the virus and if it comes back clear then we need to stay away from his fam till after they are all better and then after our retrival we willneed to get dh vacinated for chicken pox........so sorry about the spelling my head is totally not with it atm and not thinking straight (dumb meds are still making me sick =o( ).......But yay so glad he doesnt need the op atm. Oh andhe has to go for another u/s on his testi that was swallon a few months back as the dr felt some swelling but said it was most likely heat related etc jst wanted to be on the safe side

flutterbyejewels

New comment from BabyDust***aka Stace

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 22:42:09 -0600

Yeah good Luck Flutter I am sure it will all be fine XXXXXX

BabyDust***aka Stace

New comment from flutterbyejewels

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 22:19:25 -0600

Thanx Treans =o)

flutterbyejewels

New comment from Treans

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 22:17:04 -0600

He is very brave! Good luck i hope it all goes well!

Treans

New comment from flutterbyejewels

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 22:15:36 -0600

Dh has his uroligist appt today finally, to see if he needs to have a op for some issues his been having as a result of his op as a kid which are affecting our sex life and our RE suggested getting it all looked into closer as sometimes the issue can go on to cause some other medical issues. So hoping the appt goes ok. We're leaving in about 20mins. I feel so sorry for him coz he really hates talking about all this stuff and gets really shy and embaressed, but I think his so brave for actually having the guts to get it all looked into coz sao many guys wouldnt untill it was all to late......

flutterbyejewels

New comment from flutterbyejewels

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 04:15:13 -0600

I jst researched and theres a blood test that he can have to screen for i he is a carrier or is he has them so I might send him for the test tomorrow just to be on safe side and put my mind a ease. Im a control freak at the best of times but with all this iv stuff Im even crazier so I really want to know whats going on sooner rather then later and b4 we pay out money....++++++++++++++++ thoughts

flutterbyejewels

New comment from BabyDust***aka Stace

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 04:11:21 -0600

Ahhh he will be fine he might be a carrier, it more than likely affects younger people or it gets real old! I am sure hes fine! :)) think ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

BabyDust***aka Stace

New comment from flutterbyejewels

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 04:09:10 -0600

We went to a farewell party on the wkend at their place when they would of been contagious (with chicken pox your contagious 5 or so days prior to the spots showing and you dnt know you have them till you have spots) and he was playing with them a far bit.

flutterbyejewels

Flutters rollercoster ttc journey

Sat, 28 Jun 2008 06:43:06 -0500

I have been ill with af since the very first one I got when I was just 11yrs old. They had always been so very painful and heavy for me but ppl would just say I was going thru puberty and it would all settel down in a yr or so. Well a yr or so pased and it didnt settle but actually got worse. Then doctors decided I was just 'putting it on' so I wouldnt have to go to school.

My pain would be so bad that I would be in bed with a hot water bottle and unable to move for like 3 wks out of 4. I missed all of my teenage yrs because of this. When all my friends where out at parties I was sick at home.

At times I ended up in hospital the pain was so bad but a very most I would only be told it was pms and to 'get over it'

Then when I was about 17 I decided enough was enough and went to a different gp who actually believed me. Guess it helped I was actually doubled over in pain and in tears in his surgery. He then referred me to my first gyno who only had to hear my story once b4 saying I was going into hospital and would be having surgery to locate the issue. Within the month I had, had my op and was informed that I had slight endo. This eased my mind, knowing that it wasnt all in my head but there was actually something wrong with me.

I then got tried on a wide range of pills none having any affect. Within the next 2yrs I had af for 14months straight with very heavy bleeding and extreme pain.

They did another op and discovered my endo needed lasering at the same time theY discovered I also had bad pcos. With my right overy being so enlarged it actally almost raptured my appendix, which I had to havge removed to prevent this.

So by the time of my 21st birthday I was being presented with my choices 1. bounce from medication to medication hoping they would eventually help me or 2. have a complete hysterectomy. I refused straight that the 2nd opinion would not even be considered. I had always been the girl who didnt want kids but as soon as I was told it may never happen all I could think about was how I wanted to be a mummy one day. So I started on trying every pill and hormone treatment out there. Still none helped. But I didnt lose hope that my wonder drug was out there somewhere just waiting to be discovered.

I wouldnt accept that endo and pcos would cause infertility as I had gotten preggo at the age of 17 to a guy who raped me daily at school.I ended up losing that baby but took it just as Gods way of helping me get thru the truama of the abuse.

Then Just over 2yrs ago I met a wonderful guy on the internet and within 23 days of us first chatting on the net we had met face to face and fallen madly in love. We began a long distance relationship, as he lived in the city and I lived in the country. Just a few months into our relationship we knew we where soul mates and decided that even tho we lived 5hrs apart we wanted to start trying for a baby and would at the same time plan for me to move out of home and in with him we tried and tried but nothing except a miscarriage at 6wks. I eventually got an appoint to see a new gyno in the city (wher eI had since moved too) about 12months after starting ttc. I walked in and the first thing he said was 'congrats your preg' I was like 'but I cant be I got my period yday' he did a u/s and looked at me with one of those looks you just know is goona be followed by bad news. All I remember after that is him saying 'Im sorry' me breaking down and crying and wishing my bf was with me (but he was at work) and him handing me a script for clomid 50mg and metformin. That was Nov 08 and I wass 10-11wks preg.

I have since discovered that I dont ovulate without the help of medications.And I have also had a PID which I pray I never get again, it was total hell!

We have found out in the last 2months that my now fiancee also has male factor infertiliy with only 20% sluggish sperm out of 30million and %80 inactive. As well as this in the past month on my 4th cycle of clomid I finally got preg but had a chemical almost 3 days afetr getting my bfp hpt. Which I am still dealing with my grief for.

So atm we are on a ttc break for at least 3months while we both try to sought out our fertility issues and lose weight etc as well as deal with our emotions and grief caused by out loses.

But we dont see this as the end. In some strange way it is just the begining. I truelly need to hold on to the hope that someway somehow we will be blessed with a little angel to care for and love as God would want us too.....

I realy fely I had to share my journey thus far. Im not sure why I felt I had to share, maybe its to help me heal or to accept my situation. Im really not sure. Im just folloing my heart/head and hoping that somehow my story will help someone else, even if its just by knowing that your not alone on this ttc journey...

Sending you all tons on ***baby dust***

flutterbyejewels